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The Seventh Winner's Circle of Hell by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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The Seventh Winner's Circle of Hell

Start your engines A race a never asked to be in I thought the race had finished Once I got out of the city limits Our checkered past waved in front of my face It's not black and white; you only saw a white flag Any success I have is credited to your intentions All of the failures on your part have gone unmentioned I thought by fleeing to my safe space, I finally escaped Now I see; I've been going around in circles in my cage Every step I've taken you've held a banana peel to place The man that said lightning doesn't strike twice Was caught in in the eye of the storm pacified I've told you I wasn't comfortable with you sneaking back into m

An Apparent Apology by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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An Apparent Apology

How many apologies can one offer themself in a lifetime? Why bother when the mistakes will continue to be made? When the apology won't be accepted No matter how well it was said No good can come from mentioning good intent But I begin where I cannot move I apologize for giving in, giving up I thought I had it all worked out I could get my license and teach with the rest of them My peers, I loved talking shop with you I still do But, it's only window shopping for me To my "mentor", I apologize profusely For not being what you expected me to be I was a waste of breath unless I was your carbon copy From day one you smelled blood in the water

Journey Inward by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Journey Inward

Climbing the mountain Sometimes it's bumpy, or covered in ice There is another mountain you'll need to climb in time Should you fall and perish would the end result be better somehow? Lesser somehow? Or meaningless? We all have these dealt hands In a game of solitaire No one overseeing who does and who doesn't play fair Having all four aces won't matter in this game So you cut the corners to fit the square peg in the round hole A chagrin in lieu of a smile to appease propriety Hating your existence in all its entirety Keep the doors closed on your class house From the castle walls the latrine looks becoming The nomad is craving a vacation

Win the Game Before The Rules Change by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Win the Game Before The Rules Change

You don't smile all the time You're troubled You don't fit in with the other kids You're shy You are labeled within an inch of your life Give them an inch they take a mile You took a step and stumbled, but your pace resumed Just to spite the jerk that tripped you You fell, but got up again They saw the crutches you needed You crawled, but kept on moving Some took pity on you, others didn't see you at all As if you weren't used to the latter You were thrown into a match Without being asked Front row seats filled with the aloof From out of view the rest all boo You can never win They kept the best cards for themselves You can never win

This One is for you, Mom. You deserve it by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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This One is for you, Mom. You deserve it

Today is a day to acknowledge your achievements But I am in a state of bereavement For the mother I never had For the overly-compliant dad To the mother I never thought I'd need To the mother that abandoned me Hush little baby, don't say a word about the abuse you endured I skinned my knee, no skin off your ass Cut to the bone from the thrown stone in our house of glass You forgot every bruise, I bear every scar I loved you like a country loves their czar I hate you, I hate you so much But I don't carry a grudge I carry a reminder to be a better person than you could ever be Your wolf in sheep skin costume speaks well of your shell as a hu

Fool's Proof by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Fool's Proof

A false sense of security A deep wound undertaken as thirsty Despair misguided toward debauchery Pour me another, my soul is empty With you I am empty of feeling as of now; Full of remorse tomorrow, reoccurring doubt The truth comes out overshadowed by vulgarity Spewed forth on the back of solitary You make me feel pseudo confident Fearless; there are no consequences I hate myself and you hate me too I part with the cork and drop the other shoe My insides on the out Whispers encumbered by shouts Friends annoyed and concerned I’m embarrassed of what I cannot learn The message in each bottle sounds like a siren song Religiously favo

Tick Tock by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

Dashing Dreams by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Dashing Dreams

I left because I thought it was right Now I'm unsure How could familiar territory feel so impossible to navigate? Did I throw my life away by wanting to be saved? Unable to pinpoint where the pins and needles began Resisting the urge to vomit and cry at the same time Feeling empty and useless Lost and habitually wrong I had no clue how my incapacities both physical and emotional were so intertwined Unsure if I am more upset by what could have been, or by what I left behind I had come so far I was so close to the finish line But the thought of taking one more step made me fall into a deep depression You can call me a quitter, and try to soft

Vows by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Vows

As a wordsmith I find myself speechless The thought of vows makes me think of promises There-after recalling how in life there are few guarantees I guarantee that we will have Our doubts and downfalls There will be misunderstandings, mistakes, and misfortune As well as fights and failure I am not a maid, I am not a chef nor am I a finance guru But, I vow to be Faithful, Unconditional And to work with every fiber in my being to maintain the relationship we share The home we will build together can be rebuilt remodeled and restored Just as our love shall remain reciprocal Our love is Internal, External, Eternal Upholding Upmost Ubiquity

Open Letter to God by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Open Letter to God

Dear God, What makes me ugly? For they tell me so What makes me, me? I truly do not know What makes you so sure I can handle this pain? That you send my way Why was I born? Why is it when things seem content, I want more? Why do I fear life, and underestimate death? How can I distinguish between enablers and friends? How can I keep my head held high, when life keeps pulling me down? Who can I talk to about what I am feeling; when no one wants me around Why do I try to please other people when looking in the mirror? Why is that when I am around a large group of people, I just want to disappear I'm sorry to question the so called almighty But

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The Seventh Winner's Circle of Hell by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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The Seventh Winner's Circle of Hell

An Apparent Apology by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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An Apparent Apology

Journey Inward by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Journey Inward

Win the Game Before The Rules Change by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Win the Game Before The Rules Change

This One is for you, Mom. You deserve it by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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This One is for you, Mom. You deserve it

Fool's Proof by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Fool's Proof

Tick Tock by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

Dashing Dreams by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Dashing Dreams

Vows by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Vows

Open Letter to God by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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Open Letter to God

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...And Then I Wake Up by QuillQuest, literature

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...And Then I Wake Up

Morgan wasn't sleeping, not quite. He was dozing, maybe, with music playing in his ears and an image in his head. It wasn't entirely formed: a smile, a brush of the fingers, a warm embrace…a soft kiss. He was being held by another boy – a man. He was certainly larger than Morgan. Broad shoulders and large hands that would protect. A breeze blew in through Morgan's window. The warm air caressed his ears like a puff of breath and he shivered. He imagined the air as words filled with love and kindness. Rolling onto his side, Morgan lightly ran his fingers al

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The Power Of Words by meredithbrooksrulez, literature

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The Power Of Words

If silence is feared What does that say about the power given to our words? They’re allowed to make something clear Or they set out to hurt To voluntarily make myself feel bad Too quick to point out what I lack Two is an unfamiliar number; one is all I will ever have I’m ugly I’m a waste of time I’m nothing I’m falling behind Their thoughts are about me They’re better than I’ll ever be There is no place for me Words can be hassles And misconstrued Finding the clarity in the original sentiment is half of the battle Ambiguity is the lines gathered around the truth Hate is a strong word But n

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Dec 8
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Deviant for 19 years
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Current Residence: life
Favourite genre of music: pop ,a tit bit of country, and oldies
Favourite photographer: I think pictures steal your soul, if they don't get you the vanity will
Favourite style of art: poetry
MP3 player of choice: I have a gpx
Shell of choice: taco
Wallpaper of choice: naked people doing unexplainable things, or sad clowns
Skin of choice: dead and peely
Favourite cartoon character: sonya blade,daria, the cast of home movies
Personal Quote: Be who you are! Even if it kills you ( which it might)

Favourite Visual Artist

I have had the honor of meeting so many artists here, I can't choose one

Favourite Movies

The Banger Sisters, Latter Days, Romy and Michelle's High School Reunion, Mermaids

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Alanis Morissette, Sarah Mclachlan, John Lennon, The Carpenters, and Ronnie Milsap

Favourite Writers

Alanis Morissette's lyrics always get me in a good mood

Favourite Games

mortal kombat, or wrestling games

Favourite Gaming Platform

Ps2 or x-box

Other Interests

video games,tv,poetry,writing songs,and friends.

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meredithbrooksrulez

Apr 30, 2016

Could someone slap me?

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Guys. Only three more days of student teaching... not for me,  but for my former classmates. I need someone to slap me and shake me and knock sense into me! Why am I beating myself up? I quit student teaching in November because I was physically ill and mentally ill over it. I was fucking miserable! Now I have a great job, with great coworkers, decent hourly pay, and great kids to work with. I have a house, a husband, and a running car... what else could I want? I get to have fun with kids 5 days a week and not have 12 hour (paid for 8) days, I don't deal with parents or administrators, I don't take my work home with me... this job suits me

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meredithbrooksrulez

Nov 24, 2015

Is quitting my go to?

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I'm just feeling so damned unsure, and some damned. I quit student teaching. (Now I feel the NEED to explain myself) I quit because I truly felt that if I'd rather not wake up than wake up and return to student teaching. I've been doing this for awhile, and I hated Fridays because it meant Monday was right around the corner. Every morning I would dry heave. I can't tell you if it was the teacher I worked with (although she could be passive aggressive and condescending... she had me take notes on how she taught so I could teach just like her) She had been teaching for 25 years. I realize that having a mentor is ideal, but being watched... seri

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meredithbrooksrulez

Apr 30, 2014

Just Some Friendly Advice Would Be Nice

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To my loyal, loving, creative friends here on Deviantart. I have some minor drama going on and I want to see what you guys have to say about it. Ok, so I have this friend, I will call her Robyn. Robyn and I were super dooper close like from 2010-2012. Then I met my fiance, she was with a guy at the time as well, and we just drifted apart. I became close with her sister who I will call Molly, because Molly and I have a lot more in common and we just have the same intellectual capacity. Whereas Robyn constantly mixes up the to, two, and toos. She also says "well I was talking to this guy and I says..." I says... really? That is not the only re

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I tag you! You answer my 10 questions and then you get to make up 10 different questions of your own, tag 10 other people with that and they do the same. (ignore this tag, if you do not want to do it, but you may still answer the questions)

1. Do you have a religion? Or were you born into a Christian/Catholic/Atheist/Other family and raised to believe that? If yes, would you say you are a religious person? Like, how often do you pray? Go to church?

2. How do you feel about the way you are living right now?

3. What do you want to do with your life?

4. What is your opinion about yourself?

5. What is your style of clothes you wear right now? Or just say what you wear on a daily basis.

6. Have you ever had a girlfriend/boyfriend before? If yes, how many? Were you serious with any of them?

7. How many of all your friends in your life would you say are actually really one of your best friends?

8. Are you close with any of your family members, in which you all are comfortable to talk about your problems with eachother and come crying to another family member for comfort? If yes, who(m)?

9. What do you do everyday that is fun for you?

10. What bores you?

meredithbrooksrulez

Jan 23, 2012

would you still like me to respond to these?

NicoleYang

Jan 23, 2012

naw. xD but when you're bored, u can, if u like.

NorthOnTheDial12

May 21, 2011

If you're a guy, damn, you need a serious injection of masculinity bud.

meredithbrooksrulez

May 26, 2011

Do you have a compulsive need to go on other people's pages and point out any flaws? I respect criticism but that comment was unnecessary and immature.

NorthOnTheDial12

May 26, 2011

nah, im soooooooooooooo sssurrryyy. didn't mean to pinch and twist your overly sensitive nerves to the point of causing you extremem distress.

Nah its okay. pass your self off as a teenage female if you want. guess its your choice.